My older daughter and I are so tired.

We are cross-eyed, drooling and dragging our knuckles.

We’re struggling with Molly’s remaining puppies…………………..and yes, I did say remaining…

It’s so sad…

It’s exhausting and sad…

Molly hasn’t ever wanted anything to do with her puppies.

This isn’t the first time this has happened with a Mom and her babies.

So we necessarily had to step in and roll with the punches with supplements and tube-feeding around the clock.

We use Ringer’s Lactate solution along with a veterinarian-recommended, formula recipe..

With tube feeding, we know that the puppies are getting what is required…

They are well hydrated.

They are well nourished.

They are not constipated.

They do not have diarrhea.

They are not surviving.

As of the last feeding, we only have three remaining of the original six…

My daughter and I are working so hard………….but, it’s devastating…

It’s something you never get used to…

Ever.

It’s something you should never get hardened to…………..

 

One moment you are holding this wonderful, vibrant spark of life and potential……………………and then in an instant that spark just vanishes………………….just gone.

We approach the situation with all the bells and whistles and experience and effort………………………………and it can make no difference whatsoever.

Our efforts are completely nullified.

Expressions like…………..”you tried your best”…………..”there was nothing else that you could have done”……………just make the other expressions more validated…

Expressions like…………..”it’s out of your control”…………….”they are in God’s hands now”……………..and “it was what was meant to be”………………

But your heart still breaks and the tears still flow.

………………..I will still breed Irish Wolfhounds.

 

 

I love the breed.

I’ll continue to try my best to help this quirky ancient hound.

 

 

But right now my daughter and I are just numb and exhausted and getting ready for the next feeding……….

I hope these three decide that they want to stay here a while longer…

I just don’t know…………………but I’ll keep on trying…